Latest Musings

Through my neurological immune-system disease Dermatomyositis the Lord is rooting out my heart idols of materialism, hedonism, Pharisaism, procrastination, and ministryism. Instead, God is teaching me to love the eternal pleasure in being heart-connected to Himself and others while being faithful every moment with what He’s given me to do. I’m understanding that less is more in everything except my relationship with God: better stuff but not as much of it, less relationships but emphasizing more intimacy and quality with those I have, doing less so as to do my best at all, giving more often than taking, sharing rather than hording, loving rather than lusting, enjoying rather than stressing, thanking over wanting, honoring over disrespecting, serving over expecting, communication over assuming, learning over lethargy.

The Gospel is becoming more central to my everyday thinking as I’m learning to value realness in life, personality, and faith. Becoming more like Jesus is solely the bi-product of daily struggle between the kingdom of God and the kingdom of Satan within my soul. As I become more aware of my own capacity for evil, the simple truth that Jesus loves even me becomes my lifeline and comfort-giving joy. I can serve God out of thankfulness because I’m an utterly sinful wreak apart from Jesus’ love for me! All glory to the infinite God Almighty for entering finite time and solving mankind’s rebellious heart condition. He loves us in spite of ourselves and we can love each other only because He has shown us how through the example of Jesus. I realize my need for God as my personal Lord more today than when I first believed in Jesus: praise Him for this continued proof of His work on me!

Are you fearful or confident, my friend, in where you’ll spend your existence after death? Jesus is the only way to knowing God. Scripture reminds us that: “In Him was life, and that life was the light of men.” Do you adore the light that God has given to humanity in Jesus? Or are you afraid of God’s light and won’t come to Jesus because He exposes the darkness in your heart? The Gospel means that Jesus redeems dreadful sinners like you and me. This will either energize your life with purpose and significance or paralyze it in fear or indifference. Ultimately, whether you believe the truth in the end does not matter, for God will judge according to it on the last day regardless. As the hymn writer said so well: “Jesus, I am resting, resting in the joy of what Thou art! I am finding out the greatness of Thy loving heart!”